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Tuesday, April 28th, 2009
3:27 pm - New Member! Hello Ladies.....

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Thursday, April 9th, 2009
3:02 pm - thinking....

I have become a perfect hourglass: 38-31-38.  This is not small enough, but a good start.  For some reason, I'm not losing enough from the waist, but my hips are diminishing.  I'm going to start working out every day. 

I'm nervous because of Easter; big holiday meals are no good for weight loss.

Maybe I should go back to doing crunches when I work out, I stopped doing them so I could focus on my core, but if I can incorporate that back in, then maybe I'll lose from the tummy faster.

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Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
1:06 pm - Introduction time!


Name: Rae
Age: 20
Location: Wisconsin (yuk)
School: I don't go to school right now.
Music you like: The Ting Tings, The Veronicas, Metric, MGMT
Movies you like: Crank, Girl Interrupted, Kill Bill (both of them)
Do you have an ed?: EDNOS. I was "recovered' but recent weight gain has pushed me back into this vicious cycle.
Do you SI?: Not recently. It's been a while.
What are some tough things you are going through right now? I have no social life, I'm a fat lazy pig... The usj.
Do you use drugs? If so which ones? No.
Do you drink? Nope.

Height: 5'8"
CW: 145
LW: 108
UGW: 105

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Wednesday, July 9th, 2008
2:07 pm - join my new forum please

It's a fresh new forum for alternative girls with eating idsorders

Please join
contact me if you want to be a moderator

I really need members

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Friday, November 2nd, 2007
1:22 pm

this post may seem a little weird but bear with me,

im a photography student at ryerson university in toronto, im in my last year (fourth) and im working on my final project. the focus of my project is girls who live with, or are recovering from, or who have had an eating disorder. this project is very personal to me as i lived with ana and mia for five years. i used to visit all of these sites and coming  back to them has brought up alot of all memories of the girls i met over these sites and the support i recieved. i am not fully recovered but i am really looking into the pressures and feelings that go along with this and im reflecting alot on my own life and the effects of this. my photos will be only from the shoulder up, a classic headshot, because i dont want each photo to be about the body at all. my purpose is to bring awareness to this and put a face to this struggle. i also want to get rid of stereotypes i have found people have about girls who obsess with what they eat. people have very strong assumptions which i want to change.
i have the upmost respect for everyone im shooting and im looking for anyone of any age and colour. i am willing to go a distance from toronto so you dont have to come to me if youre not able or comfortable.

if any of you are willing to sit for me or talk to me about this you have no idea what that would mean to me,

  1. please visit my site at www.kajatirrul.com just to see that im legitimate.

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Sunday, January 21st, 2007
10:15 am

Location: Vermont
School: Axia College
Music you like: anything and everything
movies you like: Dirty dancing and Pretty women are my faves
do you have an ed?: yes anorexia
do you SI?: no
what are some tough things you are going through right now? losing weight, college, exams, a crazy ex husband who has tried to kill me.
do you use drugs? if so which ones? occassionally, pot, also, I'm on Prozac for manic-depression
do you drink? all the time
I'm hoping this group will be a plave where I can find people who understand exactly what it feels like to know your not perfect and want to change your body by dieting and not eating. I feel like the ugliest person alive and the fattest.
I'll post some pics when I find my digital camera.

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Saturday, January 20th, 2007
12:34 pm

what do some of you do to feel full?
Right now I've been drinking lot's of black coffee and sticking to plain old water, it works pretty well but I'm still not thin enough, but I did lose 10 lbs recently so that's a start right?

current mood: curious

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Friday, June 23rd, 2006
12:12 pm

Name: Amy
Age: 16
Location: UK
Music you like: Anythign and everything.
movies you like: Thirteen, spirited away.
do you have an ed?: I reali dont know
do you SI?: d=ont know
what are some tough things you are going through right now? yes
do you use drugs? if so which ones? ive used a few, week, pills, coke.
do you drink? yes

Ill add pics, just please anyone who reads this can you read my journal entry i really need some help, and im hopeing someone on here can help me.

current mood: contemplative

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Sunday, June 18th, 2006
4:07 pm


This is a new community for people who are suffering from eating disorders. Whether you want support with reaching goals or recovering, this is a place where you can get to know people who feel exactly the same.

Click here to find out more about us...

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Monday, May 29th, 2006
9:16 pm


current mood: hopeful

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Thursday, April 27th, 2006
7:15 pm

Name: Desiray

Age: 18

Location: Texas


Music you like: Anything.

movies you like: Horror

do you have an ed?: Not really.

do you SI?: Cutting, painkillers, bleeding. I induce nosebleeds.

what are some tough things you are going through right now? I have an addictive personality, and that includes people as well as substance. And I'm currently fighing an addiction to an old friend. We were close over a year ago, but she was manipulative and abusive, and eventually, she left me for someone she thought was better worth her time. I suffered the loss, but got through it. She was my world, my...sunshine. It was my nickname for her. It'd been a year, and I was nearly completely over her. Then, she shows up again, 5 months ago. Apparently, she's been suffering under similar abuse with the girl she left me for, and she was sorry and understood, maybe, a fraction of the bullshit she put me through. She asked for a second chance, and I gave it to her. The first month or so, she was an angel, it was wonderful. Like she loved me again, we were the best of friends. And now...it's almost the same way it used to be. Only...less...but it's the same dull pain, the same guilts she made me feel. I hate it. And I don't know how to stop it. I can't leave her, she's...my cocaine. So hurtful. But I need her so badly.

do you use drugs? if so which ones? No.

do you drink? Yes.

No one's...updated this place in a year today, actually. But...Thanks for letting me join. If anyone's there at all.

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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
6:35 pm - hmm,

well I weigh 107 lbs. I went on and off of fasting. And I did these diets, and I also still do this thing where I eat nothing for 20-ish hours or so and then have something small and healthy. It helps. But 107 is still too high, Iwant to go lower.

current mood: disappointed

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Friday, February 25th, 2005
9:46 am



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Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
10:42 pm

hmm, well. on the weekend I was fucked all. we had long weekend so weds until sunday FUCKED. E, weed, and K <3
I was doing sooo good with the fast..but on Fri I had to eat a tiny little bowl of salad and a few fries because my friend was having a birthday party and her parents were buying food for everyone....so yeah. I was on E that day too :) so wee...and ummmmmm.....my tongue is all scratchy still but anywhoo.
I think I am fucking failing...I personally do not think my weight has gone down any, I do not think I have gotten any skinnier....just fatter! *fucking sucks*

current mood: pissed off

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3:44 pm

WHY haven't you updated in this community? I know you've been around, if only a couple times, because you've updated your other journals.

What is goiing on!!

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Friday, February 4th, 2005
11:50 am

there is no fucking way in HELL that I gained two pounds. its just not possible.. its really not.

i just got home from the gym. I was there from 8:30 untill 11 , in a core strengthing class, and I was on the bike for 20 minutes . every muscle in ym body is fucking aching, not a chance in hell taht i gained two pounds.

fuck this. my grandparents made me eat at lunch, but when i got home i puked it up .. im guna have to go for a run later ; at least its gorgeous out.

i cant believe this .

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Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
8:10 pm

i decided that dance is the best work out ever ; all the girls that i dance with are noticing the pounds that ive been shedding ; it used to be the most insecure place for me .. id wear like sweatshirts and huge pants even though i died of heat just to hide my body. its getting better though. at one point i almost quit dance because of all the pressure i was feeling to be skinnier, but now its something i really work towards.

i didnt eat today :) .. tomorrow, im spending 2 hours at the gym on an empty stomache ; matt & i are going out for dinner :( , so i have to make up for that.

saturday im going to the gym in the morning ; then i have an extra dance practice from 2:30 - 3:30 .

sunday ; i wanna go swimming.

apparantly im the only one posting in here now ; which is cool, i guess. where is everybody? how are you guys doing? i miss you!!! <3

think thin *

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Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005
11:51 pm

fuck everyone and being sad. i was soo happy today ; then a bunch of people were all sad, and that made me sad./

two days until my date. matt might not come because he's really sick. id be so sad.

im so not doing good. ive been fuckin piggin out man .. thats gotta change asap.

matt doesnt want me to loose weight, this is what he said ;

" 120lbs is too skinny! i need something to hold onto while im pumpin ya. at that size id fuckin break you!"

hmph. ef him. he probably won't be around by summertime anyways. i will be skinny, wether he likes it or not.

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Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
9:14 pm

so ; yesterday , matts little puppy got hit by a car, and died. thats why he wasnt around all day ; apparantly he took it really hard. he called me to tell me ; and he sounded so sad ..

i couldnt stay and talk to him, cuase my dad was staring at me in the way that i knew i should get off the phone ; asap. so i told him i was in the middle of watching a movie, and id talk to him later. that made me feel like the biggest jerk ever ; i emailed him to tell him what really happened.

he sounded soo sad ; i cant believe how sad he sounded. :( i hope he feels better.

i made my first thingy on photoshop ;

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current mood: sad

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Monday, January 31st, 2005
8:23 pm

alright ; so today was good . didn't eat all day . had a hot chocolate; 150 cals. i didnt work out either

the other night i did 45 minutes of abs. then the following day (yesterday) i went skating for like 4 hours. im sore all over .

i miss matt ; i dunno where he is, i havent talked to him all day. i think him and i are getting too close, too fast. it scares the shit out of me, because im SO vulnerable to him ; i dont think id be able to handle getting hurt again.

tomorrow im going to yoga at 10 a.m , then im going to my friends to get stoned .. hopefully ali doesnt decided to make me eat :S . we'll see.

i got my photobucket up . heres a couple pics ;

All I see is FATCollapse )

sorry for the huge post ; think thin ladies <3

i think we should make a banner ; and promote like crazy .. its pretty quiet in here.

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